Two things happened today....
Dimple walla is coming to town and he has time to meet in the evening ...he was here at 7pm and from the moment I picked him my dimple walla was joking away. He is a fun person to be with. We went to Pelita for a drink and he had his roti canai....I volunteered to drop him at his mom's place in Tanjung Tokong. We were chatting and discussing and it was surprising to know that my dimple walla is against gay marriages. It was interesting to know his reason...his eyes lights up when he talks about motherhood....I donno why that is so important to him but somehow it is....
Well tea time went to be dinner time and we had our dinner in Pelita too...I am not sure how many hours we were there but it was rather long...after dinner we went driving and ended up at the beach in Batu Feringhi and that was when I fell in love...nope, not with my dimple walla but with the sea!! It was such a windy night, the waves were strong, the sky was clear and the stars were twinkling and of course the company was great. We sat there looking at the nite, cruise ships looked tiny boats with lights decorating them which can be seen at the horizon, the light house in Mukah Head was shinning brightly.....dimple walla was humming a song...
It was lovely, sitting there and having a conversation.....we talked nothing but we talked something ... am I making sense? It is okay, I realised it is not a crime to be senseless at times...
I dropped my dimple walla after midnite in Sunway Carnival, he was meeting his brother there...I do wish I could have given him a hug before he left...that would have ended my evening perfectly....oh no regrets at all.....
My 2nd event was a big surprise...I was offered a job in KL, in HELP. I called HELP to check on something regarding work and as I was talking to the guy, he offered me a job, to work under him, I thought he was joking but he was not, he insisted on my resume and was asking about me and everything...he even suggested where I can stay and when I can start work for him...I have not even accepted to think about this and he had started to work out the details :-)
Well, I did send in my resume, as per my conclusion about life yesterday, I do want to have a change, am not afraid of loosing, so what if I fail, I shall be able to pick myself up and move on, it will be okay, I will have new challenges and life would be fun...these were my thoughts yesterday evening as I was talking to the guy over the phone... this morning as I was showering, I thought I should call this guy before going to work but he called me as I was coming out from the shower...I was still in a towel when he asked me if I am accepting his offer!! Ya ya..he did not ask for my hands but then again, it is nice that someone thinks I am an asset to them...he asked about mom and dad and when I said I don't have them anymore, he felt bad but he said, good, you don't have to worry about anything then, you can just come over....sigh (a good sigh).... He called me again when I was at work and said he is forwarding my resume to HR and he might need me to come in for an interview soon.....hmmmm....things are happening to fast but this is the only way I like it....
Am I going to take it up? Yeah, deep in me says do it......I want to be away from everyone, start new.......life would be living :-)
As for my dimple walla, I do hope I get to see him again today for lunch or tea before he goes back but he has a tight schedule...when he got down from the car last nite, he said he will be back in February and he added that if I am moving to KL, he can see me there too.....
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
What is life?
Few events changed my views....
Young boys drowning in a boating incident...a young 19 yr old nephew of Ms L diagnosed with Lymphomo and a movie titled 3 idiots....made me look deep inside me and made me realise I have to live my life the way I want to and not they way everyone wants me to...
I have always argued about this in my mind, part of me wants to break free from the rules of the family and society but part of me wants to preserve all that as I was told this is the only right way to be...am I blaming my family? Am I blaming society? Nope...I am blaming myself for not being able to analyse who I am and for just wanting to be who I was expected to be...which is something I am not okay to be....
P said it is a sign from God after watching the movie as I told her before the movie I have decided to do all that I want to do and not let my shyness or my inferiority complex get into the way... while watching the movie, the message was just too close to the heart, it was a assurance of what I was thinking and I was surprised a Hindi movie could do that to me...
End of the day.....my conclusion....live this life the way it is meant to be lived...full of happiness and nothing else!
Young boys drowning in a boating incident...a young 19 yr old nephew of Ms L diagnosed with Lymphomo and a movie titled 3 idiots....made me look deep inside me and made me realise I have to live my life the way I want to and not they way everyone wants me to...
I have always argued about this in my mind, part of me wants to break free from the rules of the family and society but part of me wants to preserve all that as I was told this is the only right way to be...am I blaming my family? Am I blaming society? Nope...I am blaming myself for not being able to analyse who I am and for just wanting to be who I was expected to be...which is something I am not okay to be....
P said it is a sign from God after watching the movie as I told her before the movie I have decided to do all that I want to do and not let my shyness or my inferiority complex get into the way... while watching the movie, the message was just too close to the heart, it was a assurance of what I was thinking and I was surprised a Hindi movie could do that to me...
End of the day.....my conclusion....live this life the way it is meant to be lived...full of happiness and nothing else!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Hints
Guys are dumb......
Ya ya, I know I am making a very strong statement and I am sorry to say this .....there is some exceptions here, guys like my dad, doc and few other souls I have met are not dumb at all but majority of them are....sigh...
Now why this statement.......I have been hinting to dimple walla about something and he keeps missing my hints.....either he is too smart or too dumb...sigh...sigh...hence the conclusion that guys are dumb...
I like my sms wars with him, he laughs at all possible time, he is all learned at times, he is all silly at times.....he is just a cute entertainer......oh how I wish I can have him always :-)
Dimple walla has made me look at myself deeper, his questions...his whys'...eventhough irrates me but made me answer them honestly.... somehow I know the answers and I do wish I could explain to him but he keeps getting the wrong message accross when I finally realised I have to answer them to myself and not so much for him....
Once again, can I have my Dimple walla???
Ya ya, I know I am making a very strong statement and I am sorry to say this .....there is some exceptions here, guys like my dad, doc and few other souls I have met are not dumb at all but majority of them are....sigh...
Now why this statement.......I have been hinting to dimple walla about something and he keeps missing my hints.....either he is too smart or too dumb...sigh...sigh...hence the conclusion that guys are dumb...
I like my sms wars with him, he laughs at all possible time, he is all learned at times, he is all silly at times.....he is just a cute entertainer......oh how I wish I can have him always :-)
Dimple walla has made me look at myself deeper, his questions...his whys'...eventhough irrates me but made me answer them honestly.... somehow I know the answers and I do wish I could explain to him but he keeps getting the wrong message accross when I finally realised I have to answer them to myself and not so much for him....
Once again, can I have my Dimple walla???
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Pongal
Pongal and a new begining...
There is this saying amongst the Tamilians that says Thai is here new paths will be opened...something like that...well I do beleive I am starting this year in a very positive manner.. I ushered in New Year with lots of hope and my Thai was also ushered in with lots of hopes and prayers of goodwill.
I made pongal like how appa did years back..somehow end of last year I decided I am going to go traditional this year and I started with Pongal. I collected bricks, firewood, sand and eevrything else needed to make pongal outside the house and not as I always do at the stove in the kitchen. I enjoyed myself doing it, was not stressed out running about getting the stuff....it is all in the mind!!
I bought the smallest possible earthen pot and it was so cute..
Thursday morning, as I was drawing the kolam, Hamlet was licking away the flour, every dot I made was eaten up and that really made my day, it was fun to have him around, jumping at me and being so curious on what I was holding in my hand and why I was busy walking in and out the house. Oh the dogs were adorable, all three sat and was looking at me talking to the fire and coaxing the milk to boil over....yes, I literally begged the milk to boil faster :-)
The pongal turned out good, it was sweet...the way I want my life to be...I realised something, I am certainly a happier person these days, I am taking life easy, whatever is going to happen is going to happen and I am trusting Krshna to take care of me whole heartedly..
As the saying goes......new beginnings, new paths, new friendships...all in 2010....all in good faith...
There is this saying amongst the Tamilians that says Thai is here new paths will be opened...something like that...well I do beleive I am starting this year in a very positive manner.. I ushered in New Year with lots of hope and my Thai was also ushered in with lots of hopes and prayers of goodwill.
I made pongal like how appa did years back..somehow end of last year I decided I am going to go traditional this year and I started with Pongal. I collected bricks, firewood, sand and eevrything else needed to make pongal outside the house and not as I always do at the stove in the kitchen. I enjoyed myself doing it, was not stressed out running about getting the stuff....it is all in the mind!!
I bought the smallest possible earthen pot and it was so cute..
Thursday morning, as I was drawing the kolam, Hamlet was licking away the flour, every dot I made was eaten up and that really made my day, it was fun to have him around, jumping at me and being so curious on what I was holding in my hand and why I was busy walking in and out the house. Oh the dogs were adorable, all three sat and was looking at me talking to the fire and coaxing the milk to boil over....yes, I literally begged the milk to boil faster :-)
The pongal turned out good, it was sweet...the way I want my life to be...I realised something, I am certainly a happier person these days, I am taking life easy, whatever is going to happen is going to happen and I am trusting Krshna to take care of me whole heartedly..
As the saying goes......new beginnings, new paths, new friendships...all in 2010....all in good faith...
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
MACB, Mrs C and I
The gang met up!!
Mrs C and I drove down to Shah Alam to meet MACB and it was a good trip. It was nice to meet up our ex-boss. He picked us up from the hotel and drove us around, we went for Sherlock Holmes, coffee and dinner. It was nice to catch up with him...
Tomorrow is his birthday, the same date as amma's birthday. I remember buying 2 cakes, 1 for amma and another for him. Having him in my life has definitely enriched my life. I am blessed to have all these loving people in my life and Mrs C pointed out, friends are valuable assets in our lives and I agree to that whole heartedly...
MACB, Mrs C, P, doc and many others have certainly enriched my life and I thank you Krshna for giving them to me...
Mrs C and I drove down to Shah Alam to meet MACB and it was a good trip. It was nice to meet up our ex-boss. He picked us up from the hotel and drove us around, we went for Sherlock Holmes, coffee and dinner. It was nice to catch up with him...
Tomorrow is his birthday, the same date as amma's birthday. I remember buying 2 cakes, 1 for amma and another for him. Having him in my life has definitely enriched my life. I am blessed to have all these loving people in my life and Mrs C pointed out, friends are valuable assets in our lives and I agree to that whole heartedly...
MACB, Mrs C, P, doc and many others have certainly enriched my life and I thank you Krshna for giving them to me...
Dimple walla
I met a guy.....
I met this guy I have been chatting for a while, nothing much when we chatted, he said he was a life coach and he irritates me on the chat with all his questions...now why I wanted to meet such a person is beyond my own reasoning...
I was in Shah Alam when he msged me saying he is in Penang and would like to meet if I am okay. So when I was back in Pg, I took the opportunity to meet him, he did ask me why I was okay to meet him coz I have told him he irritates me to the max, my answer... curiousity, I just have to meet the person who touches my brain cells....
Oh yes, he was sweet, I loved every moment I was with him. He brought his friend, the friend became a silent observer on that evening, we met in Starbucks. His friend was very quiet, but my dimple walla was funny, cute, witty, quick to respond...he was sexy :-)
Why am I calling him dimple walla? He has dimples when he talks and when he smiles, it was so obvious and I do have a soft spot for dimples!! We were in Starbucks for 2 hours and it was a good 2 hours of bantering each other, his friend just sat there not uttering much... I was very comfortable seeing my dimple walla, was just talking nonsense...it was fun...
I am still chatting with my dimple walla, I did not chase him away and that amazes me!!
I met this guy I have been chatting for a while, nothing much when we chatted, he said he was a life coach and he irritates me on the chat with all his questions...now why I wanted to meet such a person is beyond my own reasoning...
I was in Shah Alam when he msged me saying he is in Penang and would like to meet if I am okay. So when I was back in Pg, I took the opportunity to meet him, he did ask me why I was okay to meet him coz I have told him he irritates me to the max, my answer... curiousity, I just have to meet the person who touches my brain cells....
Oh yes, he was sweet, I loved every moment I was with him. He brought his friend, the friend became a silent observer on that evening, we met in Starbucks. His friend was very quiet, but my dimple walla was funny, cute, witty, quick to respond...he was sexy :-)
Why am I calling him dimple walla? He has dimples when he talks and when he smiles, it was so obvious and I do have a soft spot for dimples!! We were in Starbucks for 2 hours and it was a good 2 hours of bantering each other, his friend just sat there not uttering much... I was very comfortable seeing my dimple walla, was just talking nonsense...it was fun...
I am still chatting with my dimple walla, I did not chase him away and that amazes me!!
2010
Welcoming 2010 into my life....
For the first time after knowing Kutty, I did not wish for him to be with me this year and that is certainly a big change in my life. This year, I took my first step into the year by being contended with myself, I was prepared to be on my own, prepared to see the world by myself, prepared to handle whatever comes on my own....the theme of the year is....on my own!
Kutty called me 2 days before the new year and asked me what am I going to do on my new year's eve...and that brought tears in my eyes...I was not crying coz I wanted him to be with me, I was crying coz he knows that I have no one in my life to share my new year's eve but he is with his loved ones....I donno if he meant to hurt my feelings or he was asking as a good friend would have asked...anyway, Mrs C told me not to cry, I should move on....
I am moving on.....deep inside me, I know this is going to be a great year. 2009 was a turning point, I decided to do so many things...I got my divorce, I changed my lifestyle, I met ppl..I met my doc :-) , I met affair, I bought flowers, I smiled more than I cried (finally), I shopped without thinking much of spending money.....I was happy....
For 2010.......my promise to myself.....I am going to laugh more, I am going to exercise more, I am going back to tradition when it comes to ponggal etc, I am going to live my life to the fullest, I am going to flirt more (good resolution), I am going to sing more and I am going to have tonnes of fun!!!
Have a great 2010 everyone!!
For the first time after knowing Kutty, I did not wish for him to be with me this year and that is certainly a big change in my life. This year, I took my first step into the year by being contended with myself, I was prepared to be on my own, prepared to see the world by myself, prepared to handle whatever comes on my own....the theme of the year is....on my own!
Kutty called me 2 days before the new year and asked me what am I going to do on my new year's eve...and that brought tears in my eyes...I was not crying coz I wanted him to be with me, I was crying coz he knows that I have no one in my life to share my new year's eve but he is with his loved ones....I donno if he meant to hurt my feelings or he was asking as a good friend would have asked...anyway, Mrs C told me not to cry, I should move on....
I am moving on.....deep inside me, I know this is going to be a great year. 2009 was a turning point, I decided to do so many things...I got my divorce, I changed my lifestyle, I met ppl..I met my doc :-) , I met affair, I bought flowers, I smiled more than I cried (finally), I shopped without thinking much of spending money.....I was happy....
For 2010.......my promise to myself.....I am going to laugh more, I am going to exercise more, I am going back to tradition when it comes to ponggal etc, I am going to live my life to the fullest, I am going to flirt more (good resolution), I am going to sing more and I am going to have tonnes of fun!!!
Have a great 2010 everyone!!
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