Black

Went wild today...a good thing though..

Bought a black blouse and black flare pants, totally fell in love with the black peice, cost me a bomb but I was thinking, so what? I am working hard for this and therefore I shall spend some on myself to make me feel good...now an occasion to wear it!

To tell the truth, I was looking for something to wear for a pleasant nite out, whether it is going to happen or not, I am just glad I am doing things for myself. I do hope I get my moonlight walk and I am going to enjoy a decent nite out with someone...

Well, here's into ushering a new year full of hope and surprises...

Happy New Year!

Hopping mad

I was furious with myself.... well, I allowed myself to fall in the trap...

I made up my mind that I am not going to get myself involved in any form of relationship and here I was worrying about my salesman coz he did not answer my calls or replied my sms for 3 days. The moment he called, I sighed a relief and then next thing I knew, I was scolding him for doing tat to me. I told him then why I did not want to have to do anything with him, I just did not want to miss/worry/care for anyone coz I am afraid I will be hurt if I allow anyone into my life.

I am fine now, in fact, I am happy now, happy not to be involved with anyone. It is such a freedom and I am treasuring every moment of my freedom. I feel light...I can fly...heck I can soar....

Now, I am going to make a promise to myself....don't fall into the trap!!!

Life

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Beleive everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Saw this from a mail and I tot it was nice.....

My salesman

Well, first of all he is not mine to begin with ( I am almost quoting from a friend's dialogue). He came into my life and made me realise so many things. The purpose of his life was to make me realise what I want in my life...

I want a relationship or any kind of ship that is close to me, no more long distance thingy. I want to hold and touch the person whenever I want...I want to hear his heartbeat if possible every nite...I don't want to have to hide the fact I am married/dating/in love with him. I want to express how I feel openly.

As I was telling my doc, I settled for the least once so now, I am going to go for what my heart wants and if it does not happen, I am fine being me....

Well to my salesman who calls me darling in every other breath he takes, who flirted with me, who made me so excited about going out for a date...I loved the 1 week of his existence. I am happy now, I am happy that I said no...no regrets....

Well world, here I am today, standing tall with my decision and I am happy and proud to be ME!

To love, I am glad I met you and today I am glad I am over you.....

Doc

I do think I have been chatting with my doc for the past 1 month and I am enjoying every moment of it. Doc came into my life and is part of my virtual world these days. I donno if this is going to be a friendship that will last forever or my doc will be missing soon but I know 1 thing for sure...at this moment...doc is here to take care of me...

Doc, if you happen to read this entry....thank you so much for putting a smile on my face everyday...I enjoy talking to you doc, love sharing my laughter and tears, my fears and hopes and every single silly thing that I do. Talking to you about my dad and brothers, telling you all the stories about them helped healing my pain as well...well, doc, hope our virtual hugs will be there forever. thanks doc..