To ask

I only asked for somethings from 3 people in my life...

Appa, anney and kutty.....

I am 1 person who won't ask anything much but once in a while I will ask appa for something I like to eat..same goes to anney...I remember the day before he died, I told anney I wanted to eat athirasam and we both went searching for athirasam and that was the last thing he bought for me...it was Wednesday afternoon n Thursday early morning he passed away....

Kutty, the only other person whom I asked for stuff, he knows I love maliggai poo and the first time I told him tat, he will buy for me always. I have asked him for laddoo, food stuff and the most is a saree...today, I just told him that now I don't have anyone whom I can ask to get me anything if I want to. When I told this to Kutty, he said, he was never there to give me anything whenever I wanted it, I told him yes, but I just waited for him to come and see me once a month for me to go n get the laddoo or the flowers....I was actually putting my life on hold to be with him......

This is the guy I loved so much.......all these years, I have put my life on hold....the sad thing now.....who do I ask now? Who do I go and ask I want a saree? Who do I ask to buy me malligai poo? Who?

I know I can do all these by myself, but it is not the same........

I have decided not to cry and I am going to put my life on unhold hereafter..........