The Guardian

I saw 1 episode form the Guardian this morning and I realised something...

This episode was about a boy who saw his dad stabbing his mom to death and the boy's lawyer finds out that the dad did so because he was depressed and the doctor precribed a wrong medicine to him that resulted in the dad not knowing what he was doing. Once the boy knew that it was not 'his dad' that did that, he forgave his father and he understood the situation. But the father, once he knew what he did to his wife, could not forgive himself and did not want to have any custody over the son as he feels he is not fit to be a dad.....

The lawyer will ask the boy whether he is okay and the boy will say no and his tears comes rolling down...the boy then leans to his lawyer and all he wanted was a touch...a hug...an assurance that life will be fine....an assurance that he will be with his dad...just an assurance....

Now, what was the impact of this show on me??? I wanted an assurance too....I know I am not a young thing lost in this world not able to fend for myself...I am an adult, able to think, able to decide, able to do lots of things but at the same time..I just want assurance that life will be fine...

I donno why, the only person whom I could think of at that time was my doc, I was thinking, if I ever meet doc, all I want is just a lean on his shoulders...a hug....an assurance that I will be fine...and that's all I need/want at this moment..

Now as I am writing this entry, I am wondering why was it I am looking for an assurance from my doc...I donno why seriously...may be just may be coz I can talk to my doc about anything and everything and may be because there is nothing else than a friendship with my doc...well, whatever the reason is doc (I know you'll read this)...can I just have a hug from you???