Friday, May 8

This is it.......

I woke this morning feeling all queesy.... but as I was showering, I tot, hey this is going to be the first time I am going into court and it is going to be an all new experience and I was a bit excited...aiyooo...what is wrong with me right? sigh :-)

Anyway, tied a blue saree as my anney, doc and lazybones all said the same thing...tie saree and go...I have no idea why all these fellas had the same idea about me and saree....I was there early, waiting for P to come and searching for coins...when it was time to go, I forgot to put the coins in the machine...memang lost soul....

P and I then went into court and we both kind of liked the place, it was really nice, if I was there for some other nice event, I would have gone around looking at the building and the architecture...anyway, we were both waiting for my lawyer when I confessed to P that I can't remember his face...memang teruk!!

Finally my anney and his wife and his lil princess came and she became the star in the morning...everyone who looked so solemn on that morning started giving a smile looking at this lil princess with 2 coconut trees on her head:-) she looked cute..she stole some hearts...

We were smiling, laughing, chatting....the only people there I guess who were actually smilling away....the lawyer came and told me to be cool...yeah right!

Well, it was my turn, went into the chambers and I was smiling...is there anything wrong with me? I cried my eyes out last Friday and today, I am sitting infront of the judge and I gave him a big smile...memang gila:-)

My lawyer received shelling from the judge...I was so nervous about the whole thing but when my lawyer was reprimanded by the judge, my whole focus on myself went away, I was worried about what new complications is going to arise now...I prayed to Krshna...told him to make it easy for me...I have suffered enough...the judge finally relented and he signed the order...the whole thing I guess took about 15 minutes...after signing the order the judge looked up at me and looking at my smile, he gave me a bigger smile....

Came out from the chambers and my anney asked if everything is over? I said yes, but I was not crying...that is something right? On the way to the car, I called Kutty to tell him what had happened....

When I parked my car in college, I called Kutty...I told him once many many many years back that if I asked for a divorce I asked him not to give it to me...I reminded him about that...then I asked Kutty if he can be my friend and never let me go....he said that no matter what happened...will happen....he will always love me...then he added tat he knows his term of love and mine is not the same...he said he will be my friend...that's when I started crying....