Confused

I am the one who was in love with love....

I miss being in love....I stopped saying "I love u" to kutty for sometime but recently I am telling him that but it is not the same.....I do know that things have changed....

Since young I believed in love...a romantic fool....I was in love with love and now not to believe in love is getting on me...what do I do about this? How can anyone not believe in love?? I keep saying I love the rainlah, I love flowerslah, I love my Krshnalah and etc and I can also say I don't believe in love anymore??? Contradicting myself???

May be I am confused between love and lust? I donno......I do still love Kutty but I don't feel the need of him to be in my life...all these while I wanted Kutty...wanted to be close to him....but now I am fine with him being someone I talk to....may be I am closer to Kutty compared to anyone else....I donno...all I know is that I am confused now... I know... something normal in my life....to be confused!!!