The End

I meet my husband 7 years ago today and today I called the lawyer to end my marriage to him...

What is this? What has happened in the past 7 years? Lots and the most I can remember were tears....buckets and buckets of it.

As I was talking to P last nite, she told me, that I am the person who does watever my heart desires and now I know, this is wat my heart desires, to be out from this mockery of a marriage my "better half" has made it to be.

I am a strong beleiver of romance, love and marriages and feelings n ....yes, I am the softie, I am the romantic fool but sadly, I was in a relationship where the guy did not feel all these, not even a bit.

It was funny today, he told me "I have never loved anyone else like I love you"...but alas, this is also the guy who married another girl and fathered a child and on top of that had an affair as well....

He asked me what I am going to do with a divorce from him....told him that I just want to move on with my life, I want to concentrate in my studies, I want to do whatever I want to do...

He just could not beleive that I will actually move on, that I will actually meet someone and I will fall in love with anyone...

He admits tat he is selfish, he said he did not want to loose me and all that he learnt about love was from me...the funny thing was, he never said all those before this, why now? I know the answer to that, he just did not want to have any problems, he is scared that this will have an impact in his life or more like his life without me.

Well, I am very sure of 1 thing now, I am sure I want to be out, out from this madness and just move on.

I have no idea how I will be in the future, whether I am going to be alone or whether I will be with someone who loves me as I love him but I am sure I will be okay.

Regrets? no....I beleive everything happens for a reason....

Krshna, hold my hand please, support me please, this part of the path is a bit rough, I am scared that I might tumble and fall and if I do, I know your angels will be there to help me up....but Krshna, please don't leave me now as I need you most now....