New Year

Been 8 days since the year began and I am already facing challenges...my biggest at the moment.

I spoke to him yesterday and I have been crying since then. I know this is the best and I know I am going to miss it all.

He told me yesterday that I was the best thing that happened in his life, that he would never find another like me, that I make 200% of a wife....he told me all that I wanted to hear.....but all I could think was "if I am all that u say then why wasn't good enough for you? why didn't you fight for me?"

U know something, I did not ask him, coz I know it is over....I have to put an end to this.......when I asked him if I will be okay, he said yes, I will be okay and that he will be there to support every decision I take. Ours will be a friendship that I will cherish forever.

I am going to miss him, I donno whether I will love anyone else with my whole heart ever again, but I know 1 thing, I am glad he came into my life and now, today, I am glad I am out of this mess...

I am praying that God will guide me. I am not asking for anything or anyone......I am just glad that I am at peace now. God, do please help me to walk this path I have chosen....alone.....please be my light......

I love u Kutty, I always will but now it is time I stop crying.....