What is this doubt?

I dono what is wrong...

Someone is flirting with me and somehow I am thinking what is he up to...call me paranoid...call me crazy...but I am starting to think I am not trusting anyone anymore....and that is making me sad coz I want to trust people, I want to believe everyone does say or do things they mean and not out there to take advantage....

I have heard too many cases, too many nice people being hurt and I do not wish to be part of the statistic. I know I am the one who wants the attention, I want love, I want romance and this guy is giving me the attention and not the love or romance yet lah as I am not giving him any chances to move further. I am just being so careful not to fall for anyone...

What is surprising is....I am not swept off my feet....he is sweet...but somehow I am so grounded....not my fairy tale at all....susahnya manusia ni :-)

I kept thinking about my 'relationship' with doc.....I donno if I flirt with my doc but I know I am being myself when I chat with doc and doc somehow talks to me about all kinds of things under the sky...even about ANOVAs :-) Doc never for once made me think what is his motive for talking to me, doc never asked anything from me nor does he make me feel that he is up to something.....but this guy....sigh...sigh...

What is wrong with me lah? I want the attention and when someone is giving me the attention and I scared pula......I am so doubtful......I am suspicious......I am paranoid.......macam mana to meet peoplelah if I am like this?

I wish I can talk to my doc about this......