I got a new set of wheels.......
On Firday last week, my colleague, L, asked if I can accompany him to buy something in Penang Road and I said yes. We went to lunch and headed back to the college when I saw a 7 series silver coloured BMW on the road and I asked L if he can buy that for me. He replied saying yes and then he asked what was it that I wanted and I told him I wanted the BMW and we burst out laughing.....
Yesterday, I went out with my anney, L and another colleague S for lunch to celebrate my life...Anney and S knows about the divorce but L does not...when we sat down for lunch I told them tat there are 2 reasons for the celebration, first it is my 2nd year working in the college. The second reason of course was tougher to tell as L does not know anything about it, so the other 2 just encouraged me to tell it and when I told the reason for the celebration, L just said everything will be okay. He added now that he knows I am single and available, it is time I go out and meet people and the best way is to get a sportier car and he just put a model of a BMW 3 series infront of me.....I was so touched and the other two were clapping away......we made so much noise at lunch yesterday, laughing and eating and just being happy for being together....
I told P earlier that we shall go out on Aug 10 to celebrate this as that would be the official day the lawyer told me but since it happened earlier, I am celebrating my life as a free person with all the people who mean alot to me.......
Monday, July 20, 2009
Prayers
Went to temple this morning......
Woke up in the morning and I thought I have to go to temple to say thanks to God for making it easy on me...and so off I went to Meenaskhi Sundereswarar Temple...the irony of the whole thing was, this was the temple after Kutty and I got registered, we went to the temple to pray and I went to the same temple, stood at the same spot and told Meenakshi what has happened and thanked Her for everything......
I actually prayed that Kutty will be happy with his family, finally, his daughter will be with him.....and then I said this prayers that I liked....I told God that I know He has planned things for me and all I am asking for now is that whatever He has planned for me will all work out well...I finished saying that and the temple bells started ringing.....it was not pooja time.....but someone rang the bells just then.....what made me so happy was that I seriously believed that God heard my prayers and I know I will be okay...
With this hope in life, I am going to step forward everyday, smile at everyone and everything and live my life to the fullest and without any regrets.....
Woke up in the morning and I thought I have to go to temple to say thanks to God for making it easy on me...and so off I went to Meenaskhi Sundereswarar Temple...the irony of the whole thing was, this was the temple after Kutty and I got registered, we went to the temple to pray and I went to the same temple, stood at the same spot and told Meenakshi what has happened and thanked Her for everything......
I actually prayed that Kutty will be happy with his family, finally, his daughter will be with him.....and then I said this prayers that I liked....I told God that I know He has planned things for me and all I am asking for now is that whatever He has planned for me will all work out well...I finished saying that and the temple bells started ringing.....it was not pooja time.....but someone rang the bells just then.....what made me so happy was that I seriously believed that God heard my prayers and I know I will be okay...
With this hope in life, I am going to step forward everyday, smile at everyone and everything and live my life to the fullest and without any regrets.....
My divorce
It is finally over....
On Wednesday afternoon, the lawyer called me, I was in class. I could not talk to him then so I told him I will call back later....of course I could not concentrate in teaching after the call, all kinds of thoughts were going in my mind...wat is it going to be? new complications? some problems? when I said a little prayer asking Krshna to make it easy for me....
I saw my anney after class and he asked why am I so tensed when I told him about the lawyer's call. He said everything will be okay, not to worry and just return the call. I did that and the lawyer said the divorce papers are ready. I was shocked, I told him that he mentioned that it will take 3 months before the court grants it and it is only 2 months now.....why is it so quick? He did not have an answer to it......I guess Krshna just wants me to be out from the whole thing....watever it is.......I have no regrets.
I do have to tell something here.......I did not cry.....I did not know how to react to this piece of information but I know I was okay....
Surprisingly, I called Ms L first to tell her the news, she asked if I am crying, I said no, I am just okay, then I msged Dr M, I donno why I did that.....may be coz he was the one who introduced the lawyer to me or may be coz I know he would understand me...
I know I am fine now and I know life will go on beautifully....
On Wednesday afternoon, the lawyer called me, I was in class. I could not talk to him then so I told him I will call back later....of course I could not concentrate in teaching after the call, all kinds of thoughts were going in my mind...wat is it going to be? new complications? some problems? when I said a little prayer asking Krshna to make it easy for me....
I saw my anney after class and he asked why am I so tensed when I told him about the lawyer's call. He said everything will be okay, not to worry and just return the call. I did that and the lawyer said the divorce papers are ready. I was shocked, I told him that he mentioned that it will take 3 months before the court grants it and it is only 2 months now.....why is it so quick? He did not have an answer to it......I guess Krshna just wants me to be out from the whole thing....watever it is.......I have no regrets.
I do have to tell something here.......I did not cry.....I did not know how to react to this piece of information but I know I was okay....
Surprisingly, I called Ms L first to tell her the news, she asked if I am crying, I said no, I am just okay, then I msged Dr M, I donno why I did that.....may be coz he was the one who introduced the lawyer to me or may be coz I know he would understand me...
I know I am fine now and I know life will go on beautifully....
Monday, July 6, 2009
Clouds
Clouds made me happy this morning....
I saw beautiful formations of clouds this morning as I came out from the house and that made me smile all the way to work:-) I was thinking, Krshna thank you for making my day so beautiful...I donno how clouds could make me happy but they did....
I guess I am just blessed as I am able to find happiness in little things I see in life....I am glad I take the time to smell the roses when I pass by them and I am glad I am able to see the beauty in a child's smile....priceless....
This made me look at life and think there are millions of things in my life that I am grateful of and I am going to go on living this wonderful life that Krshna gave us....
I saw beautiful formations of clouds this morning as I came out from the house and that made me smile all the way to work:-) I was thinking, Krshna thank you for making my day so beautiful...I donno how clouds could make me happy but they did....
I guess I am just blessed as I am able to find happiness in little things I see in life....I am glad I take the time to smell the roses when I pass by them and I am glad I am able to see the beauty in a child's smile....priceless....
This made me look at life and think there are millions of things in my life that I am grateful of and I am going to go on living this wonderful life that Krshna gave us....
Sunday, July 5, 2009
My Sexy Back
I can be crazy.......
Yeah, I wore this blouse which according to my brother in law has lots n lots of windows :-) I thought my mama was going to freak out and he did..not alot but a bit :-) My sister was cool about it :-)
Anyway I know I am just going through a midlife crisis now...I just want to feel I am alive and I just want to do all that I wanted to do!!
Krshna help me :-)
Being in Love
Was talking to P.....
Well both of us agreed that what we miss in life is being in love.... Digi, the guy whom I have been chatting for a while now met me when I was in KL. The next day he sent me an sms saying that he feels he is suitable for me and asked me if I feel the same....now wat is the meaning of suitable herelah? It is not love right? Of course it is not love coz I hardly know the guy and on top of that I had no intention to have any kind of relationship with this guy or any other guy for that matter at this moment.
I told P that nowadays I am sure of what I want...I want a companion, someone I love and respect and most importantly, someone close to me....I don't want to be in a phone relationship anymore...what is the point in being in 2 different places? When I feel like having a hug or a kiss I have to wait till the weekend or the month end for him to come? Nope, been there done that and I know I deserve better....
As for P, she too was talking about missing the feeling about being in love...it is no more about having someone in our lives...it is a pity though...I know P and I are the romantics ...we are the ones who are in love with love...but alas...we are the one who can't seem to hold on to love!
I use to think love will come 1 day but now I have lost all hope on that....
Well both of us agreed that what we miss in life is being in love.... Digi, the guy whom I have been chatting for a while now met me when I was in KL. The next day he sent me an sms saying that he feels he is suitable for me and asked me if I feel the same....now wat is the meaning of suitable herelah? It is not love right? Of course it is not love coz I hardly know the guy and on top of that I had no intention to have any kind of relationship with this guy or any other guy for that matter at this moment.
I told P that nowadays I am sure of what I want...I want a companion, someone I love and respect and most importantly, someone close to me....I don't want to be in a phone relationship anymore...what is the point in being in 2 different places? When I feel like having a hug or a kiss I have to wait till the weekend or the month end for him to come? Nope, been there done that and I know I deserve better....
As for P, she too was talking about missing the feeling about being in love...it is no more about having someone in our lives...it is a pity though...I know P and I are the romantics ...we are the ones who are in love with love...but alas...we are the one who can't seem to hold on to love!
I use to think love will come 1 day but now I have lost all hope on that....
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