That is how I refer him, my EB. His real name? I still have no clue!! At this moment he is the one I openly express my flirtatious self. I have no idea how we met and when we started chatting but it feels like a long long time.
My EB calls me BE, I asked him why BE? What does it mean? He said it is the opposite of EB. Yup, a simple answer that made me laugh. He comes up with the most amazing spellings, i.e. EB @ Ensem Boy! I wouldn't have thought the spelling in a million years! He makes me laugh with all the silly things we chat. Sometimes I call him sayang, it just comes naturally especially when I want to make a point...
I recall chatting with him when his mom was not well and when she moved on. The message he sent was one of the most memorable ones in my heart, he said something like "mom is on her way to met her maker". That message touched the core of me, I saw the beauty in departing this world, I felt it was so beautiful, when it is my time, I will be looking forward to finally meet the one I love and cherish most, my Upper walla.
I ask shamelessly for hugs n kisses from him. And he obliges without a wink. All this in chats but when we meet in person, we hardly even shake hands! I had told him a million thank yous...for letting me say "I love you". It is important for me to utter the words, least I forget I have a heart that is capable of love. I sometimes just want to believe someone out there still takes the trouble to listen to me and says he loves me too.
My EB, you don't have to be next to me, you just have to be my virtual friend, a friend who entertains my silly demands for hugs...
I am not sure if you understand how much it heals my lonely heart EB, by just saying 'I love you' before I sleep at night gives me so much comfort.
Thank you my EB. I love you...
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