I am still wondering why did I call him and only him to convey my new year greetings. It was my crush, he was the first to send me a new year greetings and all I did was to call him and wish him and his family...why did I do that? Later in the evening, I wrote a sweet note to him, telling him how his smile assures me....why? Why was it so important for me to talk to him instead of all the other people in my life? Why was he the only person I called to wish personally when all the others was just a text?? Hmmmm.....have to remind myself not to get hurt...
Last night, why did I look for Kutty? It has been a while since I wanted to talk to him but last night at 3am, I just want to send him a message, to wish him for a brighter 2017. I was not expecting a reply from him but knowing that I wished him was enough for me. I did look for his photo, I have none, it is not like I would have forgotten how he looks, but that split moment, I just had to see him...it was that smile, the smile that made me comfortable, the smile that assured me all is well....now I know why did I search for his photo high and low on the net..
It is clearer now...my crush...its the smile that I miss so much,...
Sometimes, it is easier not to think why did I do what I did......somethings are meant to just be as it is...
4 comments:
A short but a piece that would carve a smile on any face no matter what's racing through the mind.
Can i call your piece as cute.
You say its crush. Can i say its falling in love.
And you are expressing it. That's so beautiful and cute.
Feelings are neither wrong or right.
Sometimes we want to judge our feelings
But finally the philosopher in you reign in and clarified.
You just do what u want to do.
Am I falling in love? Is that even possible? Is there even hope for that?
My inner voice fails to clarify my feelings at times and perhaps this might be one of the occasion!
Yes you are
Yes it is possible
Yes there is hope
Feelings are neither wrong nor right
and its neither old or young
Values and societal views may be the stumbling blocks
but then ...
Knock on the philosopher in you and he/she will answer
I shall knock and wake the philosopher and along with her, faith and hope...
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