I am being asked lots of questions regarding to CK. As usual he is the latest topic of our chats n analysis n review. Each time I meet a guy, the whole lot of people In my life get together to discuss about it. Do I need to keep some parts of my life private?
Anyway back to CK...question today was where am I heading with him. My honest answer, no where at this moment. I enjoy my chats with him. I enjoy the text messages throughtout the day. It's nice to be in someone's thoughts. I miss the attention. I miss the flirtation. I miss the chats and now CK is here providing me all that.
Where is this going?? It all depends on him. I'm ok as a friend. Do I expect more him? I donno...perhaps yes...and emotional tie... I hv my dimple walla for the conversations and advises but I can't get the emotional dependency from him...he can't be there for me whenever I want him....there are the restrictions and rules that we have to abide, it's not his fault nor mine, it's just how the world works....
I will always cherish all the moments I have had with all these people whose paths I have crossed. I do hope CK is a keeper...he sings to me, what more does a girl need :-)
I like the fact I'm very truthful to CK. I tell him how I feel for him or how I feel for the moment. This is me. I like that I can say whatever that is happening around me. I actually don't fear of him misinterpreting my words...I like this new maturity in the relationship. It feels free to be able to express yourself without caring that you would be judged by my words...
Is CK bringing back my memories of being with kutty? I donno. But it was the freedome of me talking to kutty about anything and everything was the force of my relationship with him. I was not shy, I was not holding back, I was myself...
CK is coming this weekend...that's the acid test. Is he going to sprint or is he going to stay....
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