Let me be

I am tired..tired of being what everyone else wants me to be. I have done lots of things in life, lots of mistakes, lots of right things and I do live my life...and I am happy to be me...and I do wish everyone lets me be me.

What is so wrong if I made a wrong choice, what is so wrong if I choose the wrong path, what is wrong if I married the wrong guy or what is wrong if I bought the wrong car? Why can't I be making my mistakes? How else will I know what is life? If everything that everyone does is the right thing, how do they know the sweetness, the pleasure of being out from one's mistake? When and how do they know the meaning of success when they have not failed?

Well the reason for this entry today is because I am tired of people telling me what I should do when I don't ask for their opinions. I am tired of people looking down on me for the path I have chosen in my journey to live my life.

I do admit..I am foolish, careless, passionate, dumb...but this is me and please...let me be..

Vacation

Yep, went to Athens and Istanbul and it was a beautiful experience. Loved so many things there...roses, weather, strawberries, trams, cherries, coffee and....

But I realised something, I was not in joy, not entirely....why? I donno....comes back to my theory...nothing matters!!

Nothing matters

I donno what is wrong with me these days....I am begining to feel and think that nothing really matters in this world.

I donno why I am feeling this way but I noticed that at the end of the day, no one actually bothers.

I donno what is happening..I donno what had come to me..

I do know....nothing matters...

Books

I have been given the mandate to write books by my friends...and these are the titles:

i. How to get rid of your mil

ii. How to loose weight and stay healthy

iii. Chapters of my life

iv. How to marry and get rid of ur husband

See the type of friends I am hanging out with!!!

Friends

I have to confess, I have always been complaining that life was not fair to me. I went through alot and everytime it feels like someone else is better off then me.

Events in my life made me stop and realise that I am so blessed by God. He gave me so many angels to take care of me. Each angel that He gave to me has their own speciality but bottomline, His angels are all so very gentle, sweet, helpful, caring and most of all been there for me throughout my jouney in life.

I have read somewhere, long time back, that God's angels are actually friends around us, it did not mean much to me then but now it dawned to me how true is this statement...

Angels....my friends..

My paradise

A couple of weeks back it was a very low time for me. I was trying to sort out my feelings...hell, I am still trying to sort out my feelings.

Anyway, what I am trying to say is that a couple of weeks ago, I saw this tree in USM that looked so beautiful as it was in full bloom and the flowers were practically every where from the tree top to the roots!

It was magnificent as the sun rays were also pouring on this tree....I have never been to paradise but I certainly do think that if I am dreaming of paradise, this is how it would be....

Laughter

This morning, picked up my friends and we were on our way to have our breakfast and something I said in the car made all three of us laugh so much. It felt good, the soul finally healing.

It made me realise on how fragile is our lives. Here is my friend who is happily married but at the moment she feels threatened as her mil is staying with her. In the begining she was actually thinking that she wanted to leave her husband if this situation is going to persist. How true about life...what is the most important thing in this life? Our love? Our freedom? Or space?

I do believe that being good has its disadvantages as people you love might take you for granted...but then again may be that is love..

I am really confused about this thing called love, probably my expectations of love is so different from other people. I am trying to fit in as everyone else but I am slowly giving up! Guess this is another reason for me to laugh out loud!!!