My scenic trip

I enjoyed my trip to NZ...

Went on a road trip in New Zealand in November and it was amazing. Drove from Auckland to Rotorua and from there to Wellington. Crossed the north island to the south by a 4 hour ferry ride and drove along the west coast of the south island. 

We stayed in a farm, hill side, townhouse, near the beach, in an old antique house, on a hill top.....It was just a wonderful experience. Every place we stayed had a charm in it... 

The scenery was picture perfect. It was not very cold nor too hot. I loved the chill and the warmth of the sun...I was most happiest when I was driving and had the whole view in front of me. The world belonged to me then. There were moments my heart skipped a beat, you can never get enough seeing my Krishna's creation.

New Zealand, a land of a million sheep and beauty....

I am back

Been away too long.....

I have been away and now I am wondering where did I go? Lots happened over these past years and I have not been updating my thoughts.

I shall take this moment to thank my doc who waltzed back into my life...and asked if I have been updating my blog....

Yes doc, it is about time I get back into this business of writing. It is therapeutic...it calms me down and puts things in perspective. I find that while I am writing, I am actually reflecting, is this issue such a big impact in my life and down the road, when I read it back, everything seems to be "this too shall pass" moment.... Honestly puts my life in check!

Here's to a beautiful beginning..... 

I can't

I can't do this anymore....

Am trying so hard to be okay, at the outside I look perfectly fine but inside me, I am so not okay at all.

I am so used to be picking up the pieces of my life every time I break into a million pieces for whatever reasons. This time around, I am just not able to fix myself. I am shattered. I don't know what to do, how to help myself, how to be okay, how to smile....

Krshna, what is it that I am looking for? I have everything a girl can wish for, my space, my life, my career....they are all in order. What is this void in me then? Why I am looking for a warm hug, a hug that will make me want to live this life?

I am so lonely, my world seems so gloomy. I laugh and I talk to everyone, I seem to be so normal...but it is all in the surface layer...am I such a good actor that no one can see me, see me the girl who is going deeper into her abyss...someone, anyone, please give me a hand and pull me out...

This page is the only venue that I am able to explain myself, even then, I think this is only 50% of what I truly feel...the other 50% is something only Krshna knows

Hug me please.....